Sunday, January 04, 2009
explainations or excuses i dont know.
should i believe you?
why does my mind says no but my heart yes?
does that mean i still love you?
i dont know anymore..
i could always forget everything and go back to you.
but i dont deny that everything will change..
i have lost whatever trust i've placed in you for the past 2 years..
wont it just make the existing problems we have worst?
how am i to give you the freedom you want without fearing that you will do the same thing to me again?
how can i still carry on a relationship when i wasnt even sure there would be any future at all?
i know you dont like to talk about the future with me..
but right now i dont even know if there would even be a tomorrow..
our differences and goals in life are pulling us apart..
have no one ever told you that what a girl wants is very simple?
i just need somebody to love me properly and give me a sense of security..
i once thought i was the luckiest girl alive..
have i changed or have you not tried to know who i am?
have you changed or was i just imagining your love for me?
why cant my heart give up on you after all the pain you have inflicted on it?
why am i still holding on?..
maybe, just maybe by the time i graduate i would have convinced myself to give up.
1:12 AM
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
'if ever we break up, its definitely because of you and another guy"..
the exact words still lingering in my ears..
the image still clear in my memory..
26 months ago..
you came and got me out of a meaningless relationship..
only to throw me deeper into another..
what made you do this to me?
i've never and will never do anything to hurt you so why are you hurting me this way..
is our 2 years relationship worth so little to you? do i mean nothing to you?
you know i will never give up on our relationship unless you do first..
you know how much i've committed..
i refused to give up even when it hurts so much. even if i've to sacrifice everything..
just because you said you still love me.
you need time i give you time.. you want to be alone i left you alone.. without a time limit i hold on just because you said you still love me...
i have told you not just once that if ever you like someone else please let me know.. you know i will hate you if you cheat on me so why did you still do it??
why make me hold on believing its all my fault, believing that if i wait long enough i will find the miracle i'm waiting for?.. why make me suffer when u tried so hard to go after another girl...
a girl you barely know and you are prepared to give me up? all that i've put into the relationship means nothing to you at all? what was going thru your mind when u told me pack and pack of lies?
so what exactly are you going to do with me when you got the girl?
just because she asked you if we are still together you deleted our photos from your friendster?
then why did you purposely leave one? just to satisfy me that i still mean something to you even if its so little? let me tell you, you did it.. i still naively believe that you still love me..
up until last night i still couldn't bring myself to believe that you would do this to me..
9:18 AM
